Amazed

Chapter 4

The drive home was silent.

Ethan stared straight ahead at the road.

His knuckles were white on the steering wheel.

I held my stomach with both hands, trying to process everything that had just happened.

The slap.

The envelope.

The sister he never knew existed.

I reached over and put my hand on his thigh.

He flinched.

Then he covered my hand with his own.

“I had no idea,” he said. His voice was raw. “Thirty-one years. I grew up in that house. I thought I knew them. I thought we were the perfect family.”

I squeezed his leg.

“Nobody’s perfect, baby.”

“Not like this,” he said. “My entire childhood feels like a lie. All those family dinners. All those church services where Mom would get up and talk about ‘traditional values’ and ‘the sanctity of marriage.’ She was judging everyone else while she had this huge secret.”

He hit the steering wheel once.

Hard.

“And Dad! He knew the whole time! He sat there at every meal. Every holiday. He watched her torture you for months and never said a word. What kind of man does that?”

“A man who made a promise,” I said quietly.

Ethan looked at me like I’d lost my mind.

“Are you defending them? After what she did to you?”

I touched my cheek.

The red mark was still there.

“I’m not defending the slap,” I said. “And I’m not defending the things she said. Those were unforgivable. But… Ethan, I’m pregnant. I’m seven months away from being a mother. And I can’t imagine what it would feel like to have my baby taken away from me. To never get to hold her. To never get to see her grow up.”

My voice cracked.

“I would die if that happened to us.”

Ethan’s face softened.

He reached over and brushed a strand of hair from my face.

Then he gently touched the red mark on my cheek.

“I’m never letting anyone hurt you again,” he said. “Or her.”

He glanced down at my stomach.

“Either of you.”

We drove the rest of the way in silence.

When we pulled into the driveway of our small rental house, Ethan cut the engine but didn’t move.

“I need to find her,” he said suddenly.

“Find who?”

“My sister.”

I turned to face him.

“Ethan, we don’t even know her name. Diane said she never got to name her. The adoption was closed. This was thirty-one years ago. Those records are sealed.”

“Dad saw her,” he said. “He saw the couple that took her. He was there.”

“Your dad is a lot of things,” I said, “but I don’t think he remembers what a random stranger looked like three decades ago.”

“I have to try,” he said. “She’s out there somewhere. She might have a family. She might have kids. She’s my flesh and blood, Emily. And she has no idea I exist.”

He opened the car door.

“I’m going back over there tomorrow.”

“Ethan, no,” I said. “Tonight was enough. Let everyone process. Let your mom breathe.”

He slammed the door shut.

I got out and followed him to the porch.

“Your mom just had the worst night of her life,” I said. “Her deepest secret was exposed in front of the entire family. She’s humiliated. She’s broken. If you show up tomorrow demanding answers, she’ll shut down completely.”

Ethan unlocked the front door and stepped inside.

He threw his keys on the counter.

“What am I supposed to do, Emily? Pretend I don’t have a sister out there? Go back to work Monday like nothing happened? Eat breakfast like my whole world didn’t just get flipped upside down?”

He ran his hands through his hair.

“I always knew something was off with my mom,” he said. “I always wondered why she got so weird whenever someone brought up adoption. Or why she’d leave the room whenever there was a story on the news about someone finding their birth parents. I thought she was just sensitive. Turns out she was living in fear.”

I walked over and wrapped my arms around him from behind.

I pressed my cheek to his back.

“I know you’re angry,” I said. “I know you’re confused. But we have our own family to think about now. This baby is coming in two months. We need to be okay for her.”

Ethan turned in my arms.

He held me tight, being careful of my stomach.

“I am okay,” he said. “I just… I need to know who she is. I need to know if she’s okay. I need to tell her she wasn’t abandoned. That her mother loved her. That we love her, even though we’ve never met.”

I looked up at him.

“Then we’ll find her,” I said. “Together. But not tomorrow. Give it a few days. Let the dust settle. And then we’ll talk to your parents. Together. All four of us. And we’ll get every detail we can.”

Ethan nodded.

He kissed the top of my head.

“I don’t deserve you,” he said.

“You deserve everything,” I told him.

That night, Ethan didn’t sleep.

I lay in the dark, listening to him toss and turn.

At three in the morning, I heard him get up.

I found him in the kitchen, sitting at the table with his laptop open.

The screen was bright in the dark room.

He was on an adoption registry website.

“Ethan,” I said softly.

He jumped.

“Sorry,” he said. “I couldn’t sleep.”

I sat down next to him.

The page showed hundreds of listings.

People searching for birth parents.

Birth parents searching for children.

“Thirty-one years old,” he was muttering to himself. “Born in Nashville. Female. Adopted through Memphis agency.”

He looked at me.

“There are three girls here that match the rough age. One in Knoxville. One in Chattanooga. One right here in Nashville.”

He pointed to the screen.

“This one. Clara Bennett. Thirty-one. Born April 1994 at Nashville General. Looking for birth parents.”

My heart skipped.

April 1994.

That was two weeks after Diane’s hospital stay.

Nashville General.

The same hospital.

“Ethan,” I said. “That could be her.”

He stared at the screen.

The profile had no photo.

Just the basic information.

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And a single line at the bottom:

“I just want to know where I came from.”

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